"Yeah I had some clothes to do," I said, "and I just am finishing up this morning ... I fell asleep while starting a load last night."I was getting go...d at this ... this lying part of it but I knew my mom would freak if she had a clue what I'd been doing last night and where. It still freaked me out a little ... I really never thought I'd be doing the kinds of things I had just done with any guy ... let alone two of them I barely knew. Damn, I thought what had I done? My body still betrayed. I wanted to be like him. Wanted him to think well of me. "I like you Lou. You're really nice." "And I like you too, Luke. That's why I thought we'd both enjoy a little private ride.'' "I am enjoying it, Lou" "So, would it be OK it I took off my clothes in front of you?" What could I say. It was OK. I was curious. "Yeah, OK.... " He stripped off his top and then scooted his pants down without standing. I tried not to stare, but he looked over and saw me looking at him. I looked away, but he. It wasn’t the first time she had been in here, with her father of course, but this was the first time she was seeing my, I mean our home as my wife. I set her down and she turned towards me, longing in her eyes. I couldn’t wait to get her out of that dress. I would be careful of course not to rip the precious material, and I would hang it up delicately in my recently remodeled closet made to fit all of her clothes too. I kissed Sydney deeply; not being rough, but not being gentle either.. It's really beautiful. She toldme there were times, when she was breastfeeding me, that she couldn'ttell where she ended and where I began." Julia smiled, lingering on thememory. "That image is so powerful. Mother and daughter together as one.That's how powerful that bond can be for the mother while she'sbreastfeeding. The baby has to feel that bond too," Julia said, dabbingat the tears in her eyes. "You can't get love like that through aplastic bottle, even if it does have mother's milk.