It's like you somehow feel responsible for her issues." Right," I concurred, mulling that over."And," she continued," you mentioned that you didn't th...nk your relationship would survive beyond the end of senior year." I just couldn't see it. We didn't have a strong enough foundation. Most relationships like this don't survive the transition to college, especially when both parties have different plans, as is the case here." Did you talk about this with her?" Nope. I always figured she felt the. Of course, that meant that we would have to try to get her caught up after the seminar.The seminar ended early and at the end, quite a number of the participants came up to me to clarify a point that I had made, getting contact information or just to thank me and say good-bye. Jan stood back, patiently waiting for the crowd to thin. She was holding her notebook against her chest. With her short plaid skirt and white blouse and sparkling eyes, she looked like an innocent, but eager high school. My heart turned over; I looked at Lucy, and back at Amy. I couldn't do it..."It's not time, yet, is it?" I said to Lucy."I don't think so, no. But you did have the choice." She smiled, waved ... and I was back with the headache.I tried to speak, but the words wouldn't form properly; I tried to squeeze her hand, and realised nothing was happening — I couldn't feel her hand on mine. I reached across with my other hand and stroked her face, which was wet."DON'T you dare leave me on my own... " she. "You have to admire the guy. I expected him to say 'Huh?' after that mouthful but he just nodded to all of us and shook Daddy's hand.Daddy said, "We're here to see the 'you know whats'." He nodded slightly in Laurie's direction.Eric stepped out on the porch and pulled the door shut behind him. "Follow me. They're out back."We went through a gate, past the side of the house and into the back yard. A golden retriever raised her head and thumped her tail a couple of times, then, seeing we looked.