And when my mum and dad came home everything went on as normal, no-one had any idea of what I had done: it was my little secret, my warm wet little se...ret no-one else knew about." Bloody hell," I said."That's not all," said Kay, who was revealing more about her past than she had ever done before. "I kept getting these notions in my head: an idea would come to me out of nowhere, and it was like I had to carry it out. Sometimes they were trivial. Like one afternoon I was sitting on the loo about. Christ it killed the season for him." And the bloody team." Barry butted in. "But I think I might be able to answer that one for you, easier than you'd think Jim. Word went round that he'd been laying a couple of the other players wives or girlfriends and they'd found out about it. Or rather they did shortly after you worked the bugger over. They'd have killed the bugger, if he hadn't done a runner back to France." But he could have sued me from France." Look Jim certain players have made it. It's rare to find balance in the media anymore. " "Thank you, Patrick, I..." as I start to speak I realize his hand is still holding mine. In truth, I'm so hyper-aware of his touch that I can't seem to form a sentence! Never has a man affected me like this, not even my husband when we first met. I'm usually so self-assured and confident. With my pause, he looks down and appears surprised to see his hand still on mine. He releases it and takes a step back. I instantly miss the contact, but his. Details never escape him. I do remember the important bits... the magnetic pull, the extraordinary sex, but I'm getting ahead of myself; it wasn't that fast.I was and am happily married to a wonderful friend. He is sweet and kind and caring, but he has a history, and that has had an enormous influence on our sex life, which means we practically don't have one and haven't really for about a decade. I have a high libido, but I had mostly made peace with being my own sex-friend. I did raise the.