But I can't sleep for worry. I love you Danniand can't stand that you may be upset. Please don't do anything crazy. Ilove you Danni. I love you. ... hope you know that is all that matters. Ilove you. Please call me. Your Grace.Fuck! She was obviously worried sick over me. I felt terrible forcausing her anguish. I knew I should have called her right then. But Ididn't know what I'd say. I didn't know how I felt. I loved her. Thatmuch was true. But could I live like she wanted me to?. There wereno thoughts of getting out of her current predicament - just thedisbeliefs at the revelation that the Brenda whom she had been hangingout with was actually a guy named Eddie putting on her mask. So was thepretty lady cop whom in truth was some gay man wearing not only herclothes but her face and identity as well. How could they look soconvincing? Even their voices showed no hint of their true gender."You still don't believe me, do you?" Frank said, almost offended byMaggie's lack of. "The rest of you please stay here; let me try to help her."The young female led Shelby to an extremely dark area. At first Shelby thought nothing was there. Then she heard a very soft gasp. "There she is though I can't seem to get closer to her." Thank you Lena." Shelby told the young female causing her to gasp."You really are mother! I thought that this was a type of dream." Lena said reaching out tentatively gasping again when her hand touched Shelby's arm. Then she grabbed Shelby in a fierce. However, suffice it to say that I kept searching anyway, searching for that which I would never find, lost in a cloud of despair, pain and agony, and destined to walk a wasteland of self-doubt, alone for all eternity. Little did I realize that these types of dreams would haunt me on a nightly basis for longer than I care to remember? ~~~~~~ I woke up the next morning feeling like I’d somehow lost a part of myself, and I experienced an emptiness inside of me the likes of which I’d never felt.