As we often did on our home dates, I ordered pizza in. Being a Muslim,Achref drank no alcohol, and accompanied his food with a coke. I,instead, as a "...an" would drink beer. That night, however, such amasculine drink felt very unladylike, so I preferred to open a bottle ofred wine. As we were eating, he asked me about the ceremony with Dorian.I knew the two had spoken about it. Although Achref had refused to takepart in it, he respected my wish to be sissified, and appreciated thefact that I had. "Oniichan?" Kizuna whispered as I stepped into the room."Yeah." I closed the door and began changing into my bedclothes. "Are you okay?"She nodded. "Are you ready, Oniichan?"I wished she hadn't said that. I was already guilty and ashamed enough without her reminder that I was her big brother.Instead of answering, I crawled into the bed beside her. Kizuna leaned over and kissed me on the cheek."What should I do first?" she asked in a small voice."Remember, I'm no more experienced than you are.. As I went to look for him, Jeff was waitingfor me with a bucket of ice water, which he dumped on me while I wasstill in the bathroom. I tried to get his towel and he went into thebedroom. I grabbed the towel and we struggled over it. He stumbled andfell on the bed. I went after him and ended up on him. We stoppedstruggling with the towel and started exploring our naked bodies. Heplanted his lips on me and we were now in a passionate embrace. I knewit was wrong, but I didn't want to stop. While. That's the thing I can't teach Julia or anyone else how to do. It's very similar to my being able to see with my eyes shut. Julia, if you ever learn to see things in other rooms with your eyes shut the way I can, then you'd be halfway toward being able to follow me on my journey - but I know you'll never be able to do it so please don't waste your time trying to learn, especially because even if you learned it, you wouldn't know which direction I've gone in so you'd never be able to find me. --.