That's what I think as I hold the gossamer paper in my hands. I learned that word when I lived in Portugal with another girl. Someone long gone. Someo...e Isabel can't stop asking about.That word is about a pain so deep it can't be isolated. Or healed. A thirst that can't be slaked. A nostalgic longing for a love who isn't there. And I think about what saudade really means: it's a longing for a love that might never return. "Saudade," I say. "It's Portuguese for missing someone." That translation. Gia lay half-naked below me. I knew what to do. I rose and told Gia "be right back".Her face was turned away and I stripped naked and again sat on her butt and straddled her. Rubbing her back with the firm strong strokes she loved."Enough sissy?" God no I am in heaven, please rub my back more, your touch heals me."Mother was on the night shift and had gone away for the weekend and would not return till Monday after work; and we'd be alone together.Gia lay half asleep and I rose, kneeling next. I greedily swallowed every last drop then squeezed his cock to get out the last drops of his hot sweet sperm. I looked up and said that should hold you for a little while and he laughed as I tucked him back into his shorts and sat back with a big satisfied grin on my face. I leaned over and gave him a kiss on his cheek and said you are going to fuck your Mother aren’t you Richard. Are you going to pound her hot wet tight pussy with your big thick hard cock until I scream and moan as your cock. Not daring to squeeze it though I wanted too. Carmel stopped again, "Tell her that in return you want something that onlygirls can do for each other, and for fuck sake squeeze her arse". So I did and it was great this young woman pretending to be a girl reallyturned me on. I knew that she wouldn't object but I felt guilty, I was justgetting into the part when Sue pulled away then as she turned her back to mefor me to unzip her gymslip. And said, with a cheeky smile on her face shewas enjoying.