On friday, our training session was extended to be followed by snacks. I called Roma and she said that she will wait. After snacks got over, one of th... trainees invited me to come to the beach with him. He has to meet a girl there. We both went to the beach, her girlfriend came. We got introduced. I left them and strolled alone on the beach. Then I sat at an isolated place. During 20 minutes or so 6-7 persons, including 3 young ladies asking me to get a massage there at the beach. I looked. To be hit hard enough to be kicked off your feet and still be able hit back – wow - I thought that kind of stuff was only movie magic."Jen said "BJ was a self defense instructor in the Marines; she has been teaching me how to take care of myself and we can teach you some of the moves if you like." I would like to try to learn some of these things. Before I was raped I was Captain of the girl's field hockey team and the girl's championship lacrosse team at the college. After the rape I didn't. But what I ignored was my true motive: that talking to my son had sexually aroused me and Ryan's cock was a suitable surrogate.The following day, Mark met me online. Yes, there was a play showing at his school Friday evening, in fact all weekend. I told him to purchase two tickets and that I'd pick him up at his resident hall by 6pm so we could go out for dinner beforehand. He asked what I'd be wearing and I replied he'd have to wait and see. Then he asked if I wanted to have some fun with him. They looked like girls. And they were fucking sexy.As we sat down and gave Jessica our drink order, I leaned over and asked Mark, "So...do you have any favorites?"Mark just laughed and said, "Not really. We' haven't ever gone to one of those private shows. Pretty sure Dena would never look at me the same," making both of us laugh.I turned my attention back to the main stage, finally just letting it go about the thing in the front of their panties. I figured if I can't see it, why fixate on it?.