Eventually I asked, “Mom, when my cock touched your, you know, your butt hole, what did you mean, we can try that another time?”“Mark, I have on...y had anal sex once, your dad wanted to try it, but I didn’t enjoy it, it hurt a bit. I really wanted to try it, and find the idea a real turn on but, that night we had no lube, so it hurt”“I would never hurt you mom, sorry if I hurt you that time”“No Mark, you didn’t, but if you want, I think I might have some lubricant in the drawer, we might be able. We’ll talk later.”“Not tonight,” she chuckled.I took a deep breath before I entered Wendy’s room without knocking. I try, but sometimes it’s so hard to be a good master—especially when I was feeling depressed. It reminded me too much of that awful night when Wendy ran from the encampment in flames. That night I’d become her hero and, frankly, I didn’t feel all that heroic right now.I pushed the door open and walked in, expecting to find Wendy kneeling naked beside the bed.She wasn’t.She was. Followed by camming/facetime/zoom, whatever. I knew what I was doing was wrong. I needed to talk to my wife about this and be honest with her. Who knows, she may encourage it, but I'm too terrified that I could lose everything by revealing that I want to have sex with another man and I'm extremely attracted to cock and balls. So I leave at it this. Some online play with guys only. That makes it not as bad as doing this with other women, right? A flash of red gets my attention. I have. "It was Frieda who cemented it, "What the fuck, Buster? You just can't go on being target practice for these assholes. Shoot first and screw whoever wants to keep them alive."Lisa leaned over me and said, "I guess he got you when he sprayed the both of us. Dave is going to be fine, and the two SWAT team guys didn't even come to the hospital. We now both have at least another month off."I asked, "What happened that I'm in here? Why the big deal over a thigh wound?"A nurse was with the family.