?Besides,? she ran her eyesalong my body, ?with a body like yours, can you blame him???Oh my god. Speaking of bodies,? I turned to Ellen ?did you see ...heboobs on that guy???Right!?? She snickered then broke out into a huge grin. ?I had to bitemy tongue not to laugh! Especially with the way they kept swingingaround when he was bending over! I thought he was going to kill someonewith those things!?We both burst out laughing.?That?s why we all have to be on the same level when you swap. She saw that Viola kept looking at it and how sad her eyes were whenever she did."Yes. Every waking moment I miss her and I still blame myself for letting her go to that place. I was afraid of what James might have in mind. I had no idea a silly car smash would finish her off." She sobbed again."Well, you must come and see us at Christmas. We've rented a lovely place near Dorking You'll love it." Estella's own voice trembled a little. Clementine had been her best friend, after all.Viola knew. And then out of it completely. I awoke naked on a hard floor in near total darkness, save for what seemed to be flickering candlelight. My hands and feat felt shackled with just enough play in the chain to let me move...but not well. As my consciousness grew I could make out the muffled sounds of the club coming from what appeared to be an echoing distance. "He's awake." I hear the girl from earlier say in a soft whispering voice. I hear an attempt at a cry, stifled by what was obviously. I shouldn't have acted the way I did." It's OK, babe, don't worry about it. So, you want to keep seeing him?" Oh, yes, definitely. It just seems unfair, though. I mean, I would really like to, you know - and you already have"."What, have sex with Paul?" "Yeah" Well, why don't you?" I'm just scared. I'm afraid it will hurt, and I'm afraid I won't know what to do. I know Paul is experienced, but I'm not"."Well don't worry about it, honey, it will work out..."The next day Jennifer and I talked on.