I held her nose and mouth until she was starting to turn red. Then letting her mouth open I tossed the pill to the back of her throat as she took a de...p breath and covered her mouth so she couldn’t breathe again. I informed her that I would keep depriving her of air until she swallowed. She tried hiding the pill and swallowing, but I’ve seen all the tricks. It took four tries but she eventually swallowed it. It usually takes about a half an hour for the drug to really kick in so I went back to. In Solace’s first year, she learned many skills that would benefit her in life, but the one skill which she prized among all others was learning to read Braille music as this allowed her access to her beloved music. She practiced incessantly. She had set her sights on becoming a vocal student and voice teacher and nothing would sway her from this goal. To that end, she drove her brothers and sisters to distraction, singing non-stop. They actually paid her not to sing. And, of course, she joined. Fifteen years of separation was long enough. Hence, she always tried to have 'quality time' with her son whenever those opportunities presented themselves.On more than one occasion, Allison had confessed her love to her family and how she would never do anything to stop their unique manner of showing affection to each other. Part of her strategy in gaining their compliance about public conduct was to be a full participant--to show them she wasn't trying to change their behavior, but only to. With my tightly balled fist, I hammered on her front door as loud and as hard as I could. The door swung open to Crystal's frowning face."Hey girl," she smiled once she realized it was me but once she noticed the distraught look on my face, her smile disappeared. "What's wrong, Bianca?"On the drive over, words were racing through my mind. Now that I was face-to-face with the enemy, I was speechless. I was so furious that I forgot what I rehearsed. I just wanted to scream until I could scream no.