NO! I think I shouted it rather than spoke. Dont leave. Youve no idea how much I wanted you to notice me. Now you are here, and I let you feed, please... will you… I didnt finish my sentence. He lifted me as if I was a piece of cloth onto the worktop. He was tall, and sat on the counter I could easily kiss him. His eyes, now back to blue, locked onto mine and I saw the smile in his eyes. Speaking in his soft drawl, Im sure I can think of something to keep you entertained he breathed against my. I had to try it, I had to know. After sending me his face picture, I agreed to meet him.He said I could just go to his place if I wanted, I was surprised he would be so open, but then again, I guess he had already seen me before. I was nervous, but knew I wanted this so bad. I knocked on his door and he answered and let me in. It was a little wired at first, I had been on first dates with girls and knew how to talk with them, but never a guy. He sensed my awkwardness and it maybe is both laugh.. Main waise hi khadi rahi. Dheerese revolving chair ghum gayi aur meri taraf dekha uparse se neeche tak unki nazar mere sare shareer per ghum gayi school uniform mein meri jawani Ubharkar dikh rahi thi aur roma madam ki wajahse aur bhi bhar gaya thaPrincipal sir ki aawazse chaunkh gayiPrincipal: khusboo kal Roma madam ke saath kya chal raha tha,”Maine kaha sir, wo kuch nahi sir.Principal: dekho khusboo agar sach sach bataonge to koi punishment nahi.Agar jhoot bolonge to school se restricate. All the items on my list ticked. And the day suddenly folded up. Meeting over, everybody suddenly anxious to be gone. Vera was making sure that the Sunday lunch and afternoon visits were organised. Glad not to have to try any more. Shaking hands, being kissed, suddenly felt very flat. Just R and me in the lodge.I suddenly realised that my day was just starting - not finishing. Collected my things from the library and walked back to R's holding hands. Sun shining on us - lunched on last night's.