Could I live with my own guilt? What if Gary did find out, but how could he? Would he want a divorce? Would I lose everything? Its stupid, senseless, ... love Gary more than anything, I love my daughter, my home, why would I risk losing any part of that for a romp in the hay with an old boyfriend? But there was that other part of me, the part that felt young again as I sat with Pete talking that day. The part of me that said, whats one time? I would still love Gary just as much, but maybe I could. ..”Sean was pleased with Amanda’s affectionate interests, and not simply because his body craved hers. Neither of them had been in much of an amorous mood since Friday morning, so the desire evident within Amanda signified that her mood was continuing to lighten.They spent Friday night at Prestonwood where they were updated by Grandma Beth during dinner and Amanda could see for herself how the girls were adapting to their new home while Sean could verify that the security for the facility was. Dad was washing his hands in the sink, which I knew bothered Mom, which may be why he does it.“Have you told him yet, Ruthie?”“I’ve been waiting for you, dear,” she said.“Tell me what?” I asked.“If he has moved in with somebody, we are going to have to find somebody, won’t we?” Dad said.This sounded quite fascinating. I pulled Arial’s chair out for her, getting a ‘Thanks RK,” for my effort. I dished some Noodles and Chicken on her plate for her until she said, “That’s enough, please?”Our. “But dad, do you at least realize; if I was not here, you were leaving Sara all alone”. I said with a concern.“So what, she is not a k** anymore”, was the answer from my mother; “Now even better, you are here with her”. I almost had a heart attack.In the next 30 minutes the cab was at the door and they had hauled the suitcase out and I heard the cab engine roar off to the airport, just before Sara closed the door. Sara came back and asked me if I had taken the breakfast. No, and I do not feel.