Nie und nimmerwar das in der Jungen-Abteilung gewesen.Aber es passte mir, und es f?hlte sich toll an. Was soll's, dachte ichmir, Unterw?sche sieht sow...eso niemand. Und wenn Mom w?sste, was ichsonst so anhatte...Die Str?mpfe waren aus Baumwolle, das war klar. Stand auch auf derPackung. Aber so feine hatte ich noch nie gehabt. Und es warenKniestr?mpfe, w?hrend ich sonst nur Socken trug. Die w?rden toll miteinem meiner R?cke aussehen, dachte ich mir.Der Jogginganzug war auch nur auf den ersten. Fight or flight; food stocktaking; sex; hell, even stamp collecting; there was an evolutionary reason for everything we did and it made life boring. He ignored it and continued to steal glances.At Reading they both disembarked."Scuzz plez, you go to Oxford?" She said in a sultry, East European accent."Yes, you too?" Yeyez, could I travel wiz you to catch correct railway?" Train, and yes of course" Plez?" We catch, I mean we travel on a train, a railway train you see? The rails and the station. Each day I think. Each day I cry. I cry for the love I had to give up. I cry for the longing I have in my heart. I cry for the future that holds no joy for me. I cry and I wonder how I can go on feeling this way, lost and alone. I cry, with the knowing that I am lost, confused and alone. Each day I cry. Each day I worry. I worry that I can and will not make it. That I will attempt something irrational. That I will give in and surrender to my sorrow, my pain, my sadness. To take the cowards way. Iruvarum nandraaga kiss seiya aarambithom, en kaiyai porumaiyaaga aval mulaiku nagarthi sendren. Mulaiyil kai vaithu nandraaga thadavi ithazhil kiss seithu konde irunthen, haaaaaaa mulai unmaiyil perithaaga irunthathu.Ennal aval mulaiyai muzhuvathum pidikave mudiya villai, mulai avalavu perithaaga irunthathu. Iruvarum kiss seithu konde irunthom, yaravathu vanthaal amaithiyaaga pesi kondu irupom. Yaarum ilatha pozhuthu en kai aval mulaiyil irukum, mulaiyai pisainthu konde ithazhil kiss seithu.