You were handsome and charming and everything a woman could ask for, but I've never felt as if I deserved you. I've always felt that I trapped you, ev...n if I didn't do it intentionally.I don't deserve you Kirk. Jamal is crude and even mean at times, but I find myself drawn to him, perhaps it is because we deserve each other -- the powerful and abusive man and the woman who deserves no better than to be his whore.I hope now you can find happiness, real happiness, the kind of happiness you've. I’ve never had one of those, and it’s tempting, but the problem with that is that I wouldn’t have the foggiest notion how to approach one. Do I pick one out in the supermarket and get myself arrested for propositioning her on the spot? Probably not a good idea… Go to a bar and try to pick one up? Even if I could get enough time out of my wife’s sight to go to a bar, I can’t imagine a twenty something year old taking me seriously. There’s nobody at work for me to hit on, they’re all either as. Nothing difficult. Get jobs from the main office, schedule crews, enter pay data, just basic admin stuff. Everything went well the first few weeks - Monday through Saturday afternoon. When I got my first paycheck, my boss, I'll call him Mr. Jones, ask if I liked it. I told him yes and that my husband and I really needed it. He said good and glad I liked it.The next week things started to change a little. Mr. Jones would say things about my clothes and hair and looks almost every day. He. .."Shang said with regret. "He has a heart of stone." Oh," I said in understanding. Parental issues. I could kindof relate."Bet you he has a lovely singing voice though. So... Now that you knowwho I am..." Actually I don't know who you are Jess. I know you're not Spider-Manbut you seem to know him," Shang said. "Who are you?" Oh. Right. So um, I have similar abilities to Spider-Man cause I'm hisclone... Heh. In a nutshell I'm an escaped illegal super soldierexperiment, part of a failed FBI.