"I know Jamie's secret, I know Jamie's secret," she chanted in sing-song, like a little girl on the playground at recess. "I'm learning all sorts of t...ings about my quiet big brother tonight! OK, show me more..."Jamie was quite excited by now, and told Heather in detail about all the things he fantasized about having girls do to him, even if he hadn't ever experienced most of it. He had moved back to the couch, and she sat on the floor in front of him listening raptly, excited and fascinated by. Chatting about how she started, Lucy slowly pulled Sam's story from himand over the following months became a very close friend. If he ever hadany issues about the path he was being pushed to walk, Lucy was at theend of the phone full of good advice, and, although a good fifteen yearshis senior,she became his first girl friend. On weekends, when heescaped Victor's mother's clutches, she took him shopping, usuallyaccompanied by Emma, another classic car owner's wife.A first Sam did not notice. Or too out of control. Or too uptight. God, I have to let go. I have to let him do what he wants. He has my checklist. He said he was planning ahead. He knows what I THINK I want. And he has his own ideas. He promised he wouldn’t be rough. He could probably be a little rough. As... as long as he starts gently. As long as he’s conscious of my needs. As long as he’s in control of the tempo and doesn’t rush me. I don’t know... I just don’t know how much I can take... how much I can handle.. I had sex in university with one chick, but she turned out to be a bitch. Just selfish and rude, but hot as can be. She was thin and cute, she had a dorm room at the university, the sex was amazing though, I wasn’t as awkward at it, the only thing that sucked was that she wasn’t a very nice person. We fucked in the shower, on the bed, on the kitchen table, all over. From the front, and from the back, she was a horny chick, and so tight…After University…After University, it was 4 years later, I.