Home leave, then Sweden. I’d need cold weather gear.I read somewhere, can’t remember where exactly, that what sustains us are friends who love us ...nd who show us their love, who share our pain when we are in pain.By that measure Sofía and Javier and I were friends, no matter how recently we’d met. It’s true our friendship was a temporary one, it had always been certain I would leave some day, but we’d made the most of the time we had. I admit I’d thought more than once early on that Sofía and I. After six months of friendship, my desires to have her, hold her, kiss her, and fuck her were not subsiding. Every minute I spent with her only increased my want for her, my need. She was beautiful of course, her hair was long and dark, but the colour often changed. She rarely smiled but when she did her eyes lit up and it made me fall for her deeper. As our friendship grew I knew that my feelings should stop she liked boys, she liked cock. She'd never look at me in the same way as I did. Then it came to me, Padjelantaleden. That evening I emailed the videos to Jenny, I wanted to hear her side of the story, although I couldn’t imagine what it could be. The next day I made all the arrangements and flew to Luleå The day after I took the bus from Luleå to Ritsem and then the ferry over to Akka. Most of the passengers continued to Vaisaluokta leaving just a young girl and I to take the rocky path up to the cabin. A couple of germans who had arrived the day before were in the cabin. "Sit," Vicki said, "You and Aren can visit, and I will be back soon." Why does Tes want to see you Vic?" Aren asked.Vicky leaned over and whispered a lie into his ear saying it was about her pregnancy."At this time?" He questioned.Vicky just shrugged and then headed out the door at the sound of the approaching car.The vehicle drove her to the cafeteria, where Tes met her, and handed her a drink. They sat down and Tes put her arm on Vicki's shoulder in comfort as Vicki began to sob.The pills.