She squealed and looked frightened."Please," she whispered, gritting her teeth as I bent her arm higher, "No rough stuff. I don't like that sort a'thi...g." You know a fellow name of Jim Henry?" I asked, watching her face in the glass and not liking what I was doing. She shook her head. "How about Billy McLaw, or Nick, what was his name, Nick Roberts, you know them?"No," she moaned as her fingers reached the back of her head. I held her other shoulder to keep her upright."I can break this here. Me aur dev hasne lage.Me esi tarah towel me hi thi aur wahi beth k khana khane k bad tv dekhne lagi.Dev kapde pehna aur niche ghumne challa gya.Mummy papa bhi beach chale gaye.Me akeli room me thi.Me door lock ki aur sofe me beth k tv dekhne lagi.Thodi der k bad dev wapas aa gya me door kholi aur dev ek packet cigarette le k aaya tha.Me der kiye bina door lock ki aur hum dono room me chale gaye.Me towel nikal k nangi ho k bed me let gae.Bhai aur me dono cigarette pine lage.Dev mujhe kiss kar k. I continued the dream with the guard in the fantasy falling in love with me, sneaking me out, and raising a family with me. Then abruptly my journal entry switches to addressing God. I beg his forgiveness for my sinful thoughts.Lord, why do you torture me—I ask in the lord’s prayer ‘and deliver us not into temptation, deliver us from evil’ it says plainly. Why do I enjoy these dreams?In my little red journal I wrote a lot about sex, a lot about God, and very little about my real life. Real. Uski 38-36-40 Ki figure usme ekdam kadak lagrahi thi. Uska blouse aur ghaghra ke bich mese uski fair kamar bhaut sexy laglahi thi. Uska blouse backless jesa tha aur use unki gori peeth bhaut sexy lag lahi thi.Jab mhendi ka pogram chal raha tha to me bara bar unhe dhek raha tha control hi nhi ho raha tha. Unje he bat pat thi leki kuch nahi bolo. To rat ko karreb 11 baje ham sb gents logo ghar chale gay me ladies sab mehendi nikal ne keliye ruk gai. To usha ka ladka mere sath gar aakar so gay aur.