But he was always THERE, always applying that underlying subtle pressure, always letting me know that his feeling for me were pure but undeniable. He ...tarted sending me flowers. And finally, finally, I relented and went out with him. I had a good time… and he KNEW it. And then, I let him take me out the following week. And the next. And then twice in a week. And then three times. I put off having sex with him for more than a month. But by that time, I was already hooked. I was already his.. Then the day I was dreading finally came, and he decided I had done something to earn another beating. It was the day I killed my second stepdad. I was in the drying room stringing up peppers to dry. My mother grew an impressive variety of peppers, and at the end of the growing season I hung the remainders from a row of hooks on the rafters to air dry over the winter. Come planting time, we would pull the dried peppers down and crack them open and then shake out the dried seeds to plant. It was. So did Loni when she finally stopped trying to make us something we weren't.I give up, she said silently. You are what you are, and I love you the way you are. I love those two galoots, too, not like I love you, but I love 'em and wouldn't change either one of them one iota.Over the course of the next year, we'd be making three or four trips to Hollywood, which was fine with me because Loni's tailor set up shop in the Beverly Wilshire, one of my favorite hotels. More to the point, Loni agreed. Jake looked to me and gave me a heavy box. What was it? I opened it to reveal a PS3! Holy shit dude thanks. Before I got fired from McDonalds for being gay I bought this for Kevin. Fuck him I want you to have it. Jake said. He kissed my dick. So yummy. he said under his breathe. I turned to Alex I dont have a present for you but I do have my love. I said. Thats so fucking corny its awesome! Alex said, giggling. I got on the bed and instructed Jake to get behind me and Alex infront. I think he.