Half past four. Josh would be here soon! Just like every year for as long as I could remember my cousin Josh would be spending his summer holiday with...my family in the city. In fact he would spend nearly all his holidays here, even a weekend every now and then. We had shared some of the best times of our lives and had grown to be more siblings than cousins, and despite the long periods of time we sometimes spent apart, everything was instantly as it had always been when we saw each other again.. We said our good byes and jumped on our bikes and raced home. I ate and took off for the fort right after dinner. Mike was already there since it was right behind his house. he showed me how to get in and we crawled through a hole in the ground and covered it up with a board after we got in. It was huge inside. We cold have had a dozen guys sleeping side by side and head to toe on the floor in sleeping bags and still had room to walk around.Mike showed me a stash of magazines and we got into. Marty forced me into the front door. The house was amessy inside as out. In the living room I heard loud voices boominglike thunder. I was shoved into the room they originated from. Wearingthe outlandish pink confection the girls created for me, I found myselfface to face with Marty's older brothers. They sat on a sprung couchdrinking generic beer from tin cans that littered the floor. They wereeighteen and nineteen and their reputations as trouble proceeded them.When they say me, in all my. Perhaps, her fingers even briefly trailed her tender parts, but she kept those fingers collared and chained. To deny herself pleasure, she felt, made her one with that universe that she tried harder and harder to blink, as the years rolled over. It simply would not go away… and so, she thought, ‘I will just be a mirror.’ She batted at the soapy surface of the lacustrine body, contained within the smooth, porcelain tub she had earlier crawled into. It was a gesture of frustration. To deny.