"Right over here. Do you know your size, sweetie?" Well, I've been wearing 12 pants," I said. "Boy's pants."The salesgirl cocked her head, and her eye...rows shot up. "Really! Well,I think you look like about a 4." She looked at Auntie Mamequizzically."Well, up to now, we've been raising Patricia as Patrick, but she'sready to move past the tomboy thing. Isn't that right, Patricia?" Yes, ma'am." So, let's get to work. What do you have in mind?" Mandy asked."I want to look at dresses, mainly, but. We knew this and dreaded it, but remained optimistic on the premise that he would return the coming month and we would be together again. I watched him leave by the enormous eye at the entrance of the Faire. He was mounted on his armored warhorse that made its way up the earthy ramp. He turned to me, a sad smile on his face, giving me a little wave. I waved back, putting up a fake smile. When he was out of sight and in the gloomy forest, I ran to the back of a closed tent and cried. I stopped. "I returned to the kitchen and finished the dishes. She came in just a bit later and hugged me while I was standing at the sink. I turned and leaned down and kissed her. She put her arms around my neck and her tongue invaded my mouth.When she let go, she said, "I really had to pee bad. I didn't mean to pull away from your kiss, but I didn't want to wet myself while we were kissin'." That's fine hon. There's not a problem. I wasn't mad at you." Ok, I just didn't want you to be upset 'cause I. I washed off my make-up and changed back into my guy clothes and vowed tomyself that I'd never dress again...Christ, what did I think I wasplaying at?...if he were serious about exposing me (he cant be, he cantbe, he CANT be! ) I could be ruined...my job...my family...arghhh....mywhole body trembled as the possible consequences sank in. I went to thebedroom too scared to even look at my computer, lay on the bed and staredat the ceiling hoping beyond hope that it would all just go away.The next.