And that’s a very unpleasant thought. * 3rd July 1948 It’s been a few days since I’ve been able to write to you, Journal. It feels like this is...the only way to somewhat keep my sanity. But I have to tell someone what’s going on with me, even if I can’t tell an actual human being. I feel so disconnected from reality. The nurses and doctors won’t let me leave this damn room. I feel so trapped and it’s unnerving! Things have been gradually getting worse here. I’ve been given the same injections. It was nice. I followed her to the kitchen. ‘Ashley, nice to see you, sweetie.’ Sam approached with his arms wide. I accepted the hug. ‘Nice to see you, too, Sam.’ Jeff was at the stove, his left hand holding the handle of a frying pan, his right stirring whatever was in the pan with some kind of ribbed metal thing. ‘Sorry I can’t leave here. If I stop stirring with the whisk for as little as three or four seconds the roux could start to burn and I’d have to start all over.’ ‘And he’s doing it. It would be a good choice, since it was a close-in weapon with a lot of firepower and was not meant to be a sharpshooter's gun.All I needed now was a choice of theater of operations. Based on what I had seen in the movies, Italy, in the dry season, looked like a good choice. I told Mother and Dad what I planned to do, so they wouldn't worry about me. I promised to keep my TK armor up at all times and to come home if I got into too much trouble. Dad had been sent to the Pacific, so he thought. TO my knowledge, every brother I have ever seen that lost an armor arms or a leg or legs, or their eyes or hearing, or what have you HAS beenchanged into a fully able bodied woman." I sort of thought as much and how many men do you think have been changed Inthe general population previous to their change had some kind of lifethreatening or disabling malady or injury?" Well what about you?" Well, Ken I was a pretty heavy smoker. At least two packs a day on theaverage and I probably had a nasty.