It felt liberating, and extremely sexy to be the object of his fascination, more so that a man as beautiful as him had wanted to capture me nude. It s...ept me up in its moment and before I knew it I was deliberately angling my body towards the camera as I clutched the glass beer bottles provocatively to my chest.Click, click, click.‘Fuck yes! That’s it. Incredible!’I winked, grinned, pouted, leered, leaned into the lens and dropped my hair across my face - basically anything I’d seen in Cosmo. But, when you look at me the way you do, I feel as though my heart hasbeen hitMy darkness is now absolute.You are all I can think about.When you're so far away, all that is in my mind is your face, full ofinnocence, full of life, and cute.Nowadays, though, I can't get your attention even if I shoutMy heart is quickly becoming a black hole.Light ceases to go nearThe signs are as clear as if written on a holy scroll.I hate who I am for letting you go from out of fear.Sometimes I worryAnd no one. The candles are burning low. You swing your legs into the bathtub and leave my kneeling there outside it. With a backwards glance you toss a bar of soap at me. I snort and roll my eyes. I carefully reach around you to turn on the water. I can't look at your face, if I do that I'll lose all self control.The water is warm as I run the soap over your skin. Soft circles across your back and finally to your front. Your breasts get harder the more I wash them. I rub your nipples more and you moan.. ’ ‘What are you talking about?’ I heard him sigh on the other end. ‘ There’s a screening tonight, ‘ he said. ‘ I want you to come with me. ‘ ‘Xavier, will you stop being so dammed oblique?’ I said. ‘ What is going on tonight?’ ‘I’ll pick you up at seven thirty, ‘ was his only answer. ‘ wear your black dress.’ My protest was interrupted by a click as he hung up the phone. I started to dial him back, but gave up in midnumber. It was useless trying to pry information out of Xavier when he was.