But I ended up going to the nearby state university. That way I could continue to live at home and keep things cheaper. Between the scholarships, the ...inancial aid and student loans, I was able to pay for everything myself without burdening my mom (my father had abandoned us when I was only three). And the part-time jobs gave me some spending money.With no Shelly to pine after and wait around for, I dated several girls in college, and I had one long term relationship that lasted ten months.. I decided to come out of my room with just my boxers on, I mean if I come out naked and he was not wanting to do something it would just be sad. He had the coconut oil out and putting some on his dick to masterbate with. Which at this point I decided to just come out and ask, "Need some help with that buddy?"His hands where a little shaking and he looked up at me, "I am not sure, I want to try but just do not know how..."I looked at the screen on the computer which had strait porn on and told. "Please Jim, I can't. I just got married and..." "SHUT THE FUCK UP, CUNT! Jim screamed. She instantly began to cry. Lori knew Jim was serious. "What do you want, Jim? I can send you money until I have repaid all that you lost." Jim’s' voice softened. "That will be a good start, Lori. But do not send it. Meet me at my house tonight. We will discuss the arrangements to get you even with me." He then firmly told her. "Be there at eight o'clock and don't be late, or else I'll send the. “I’m so sorry.”“Sorry, sorry! Screw you. I needed you this week and you hid from me.”“Sorry,” he muttered.“Is that all you can say. Do you hate me? Do I disgust you?”“Uhh.”“Answer me! Do you hate me because a monster attacked me? Because it took its pleasure from me. Do you hate me because I enjoyed it?” Where did that come from? Did I really enjoy it? Is that why I’ve been so confused. Confused that I enjoyed it and I shouldn’t have. Exhausted I collapsed into Kenji’s bed. I felt his arms.