My mind was just swimming with thoughts. Live as a womanfull time. Have my voice changed. Jamie likes Briana. Ilike Briana. What would my mother and s...ster say? How wouldmy life change? Could I handle the change? Would Jamiereally like me full time as Briana? Would she still love meas Briana? These thoughts and other raced through my mindas I walked. I hardly noticed the few other people thatwere at the lake.I got back to our spot a little over an hour after I hadleft. Jamie saw me walking up. But I was very tempted to “chicken out” – I looked at Hetro porn sites during the week (which I’ve never bothered to do before) – and found the pictures of female genitals, breasts etc a real turn-off.I did realise my Buddy had “Set me up” – he said it was to broaden my horizons. I guess he’s a bit more than a “Fuck Buddy” to me – I like and trust him a lot and he’s one of the few guys I bareback with. The other thing is – before doing it I’d been quite anxious and had asked advice from friends. Really steamy and sexy shit, i miss all that. this one was never sent to her.you tell me to come by and to come in and make myself at home. i walk in your house through the back door and i can hear that you are in the shower. i peek in and see you rinsing off after being at the beach, you have on a sexy and tight black bikini that makes your sweet ass look so good. i surprise you by opening the shower door, and leaving it open as i take off my shirt. you come over to me and kiss me and press. " she mumbled to herself. "And the lamp?" Took it right out. Best thing could that have happened to it," I chuckled."Tommy, it's not funny! God, I can't believe I drank that much. What if I'd been picked up on the way home?" I thought you were giving up drinking after our evening in Bimini? At least that's what you told Sue and Bob—that you weren't going to drink any more." I didn't mean to have anything last night, but everybody else did and I guess I let them talk me into it." I could tell.