And finally, I am thankful that you have forgiven me for my sins. No man would do what you have done for me, if not for that.I will always think of yo... with love and fondness,Yours truly,AndreaI flopped back on the bed and the tears came. I couldn't help it. On this day of happiness and celebration, I had been reminded just what had brought it all about. The cost had been high and I had been bottling it up inside me just how devastating our divorce had really been. I had masked it and hid from. It was just another silly sitcom, he'd told her. Not great, but something that would give her a little exposure. Something that her career could really use at that point. Despite fifteen years of guest shots and minor roles, she still hadn't made that jump to the first string.The show was originally supposed to be entered around her character, Prudence Greer, a mid-western wife and mother who wrote an advice column for a local paper. Also signed on for the cast had been Harry Hamilton, a. All in all though, I was acting like the girliest girl inschool, and mostly I was enjoying it. I had a few encounters with guyswho wanted more from me than I was comfortable giving, but I waslearning how to deflect them, and avoid those situations almostaltogether. Then the nightmares began. I asked my mother if I could seea therapist about the dreams, and was surprised when she adamantlyrefused to allow it.My mother had changed in those months, almost exhibiting signs of asplit personality.. In a word, Mademoiselle Danglars would make a charming mistress--but a wife--diable!" And this," said Monte Cristo, "is your opinion of your intended spouse?" Yes; it is rather unkind, I acknowledge, but it is true. But as this dream cannot be realized, since Mademoiselle Danglars must become my lawful wife, live perpetually with me, sing to me, compose verses and music within ten paces of me, and that for my whole life, it frightens me. One may forsake a mistress, but a wife, --good heavens!.