.. Not until Patrick convinced me that I should." My father thinks I needed a man so badly that it was like a sickness. We never talked about it, righ... out in the open, but he fancies himself some kind of amateur Doctor Phil. He wanted to save me. He wants to help Nolan, but he wants to save me, above all."I hated how this conversation was flying out of control. " ... Seemed to me, last Sunday, maybe your father wasn't so far wrong. I thought we helped each other. I thought we were good. Then she opened her senses fully. Nothing happened. ‘All I can feel is his fear.’ For a second Majgen was astonished. ‘Maybe yijejos don’t emanate the same way humans do.’ She closed her senses and eyes again. ‘No, that’s not it. He is emanating, I just can’t feel it. It’s me. Not him.’ After some more long breaths, Majgen repeated her preparation and sense opening procedure. ‘Nothing. Just the fear. Grief!’ Majgen clenched her fists in frustration. ‘I have to figure this out! My special. We even had an Australopithecus skull here once!’ For his first few days on Ecstasy Paul made a point of visiting all the tourist sites. These were mostly famous because many were nearly a thousand years old and were relics from an earlier age in human history when even having a permanent settlement so far out in the Solar System was considered achievement enough. The founders of Ecstasy had high hopes for their new settlement, which they didn’t call by its modern name but by the far grander. She also passed out and did not wake for ten minutes. Afterward she was even more loving than before. I'm afraid I've created a monster.No, I didn't create a monster. I've known since the video made back on Earth that Violet deeply and truly adores me. I don't know why her heart opened up to me, but I do know that I love her as much as she loves me. Sure I "own" her and I am "punishing" her at the moment. If being forced to wear thigh-high stockings and a garter belt, then pulling on thong.