She did not look happy about it, but said she understood and would wait until I felt better and more confident. Right then I was almost sure I never w...uld.Two weeks later, after living a celibate life, and, with Susan's help, learning a fair amount about Cornwallis's small but busy army and wanting to learn more, I visited Felicity Snyder's home again, by way of the back door, and had supper with the lovely woman and her bright-eyed children. Later, in her bed, I tried to tell her my idea."Not. He didn’t look particularly good, but one look at him gave an instant accurate impression of what he, at least, seemed to be. It was exhilarating. He knew how to do it, from getting so many. He knew what his clients were feeling, and enjoying, from feeling and enjoying Miss Jordan’s spankings. He enjoyed giving the spanking more than he’d thought, but not nearly as much as getting one.Spring returned and the trysts with Santiago became irregular again. Befoe summer, the house was finished. She put her face back onto his broad chest, “Rayner, can I ask you something?”“Wait, I want to ask you something, first. All the while since we parted, to the time I found you again, okay, until Dog found you, and all the time that you slept and recovered, I have debated with myself how I would express this or ask this or however it might come out. Sarah, I know there is no place or anyone to make it legal, but … well … would you be my wife? Even if we can’t really be married, would you be. He feels around and plays with my clit and I move up and down until I come again. I raise up until the bottle leaves. I don't want it to go, but I have to lie down. He held me until my breathing and nerves relaxed. Later, we made love so he could get off, too. The feeling of a cock, hard and hot and gorged with blood, is different and more intimate, for sure. Still one of the sexiest nights I can remember. (You k**s who don't think this was very radical, remember that this was way, way back.