Everything is different now and I don't know why!"I hadn't intended to get so emotional but once I started, it all came out. It had been building insi...e me for months and now it overflowed. The pain that had begun with dinner, now was a full fledged fire burning in my belly. I poured it all out and finished with a tear falling down my cheek.I watched Erin's face, waiting and hoping for some rational explanation of what was wrong but all I saw was a slow flush of red that started in her cheeks. At the edge of the ‘bed’ you stop. I hook a finger in the side of your thong and give you a silent ‘no’ look. Your hands help and the garment pulls away reluctantly from your hips, but falls to the thick grass with barely the noise that a falling leaf can make. Without further instruction you climb onto the makeshift bed and lie back. I stand over you for what seems like an achingly long eternity. I want to immediately come to you but I stand still and pensive, wanting to drink in your sight,. Who fucked you first, Sushma, I asked naughtily.Sadness crossed her face, like a passing cloud. When she spoke it was a voice choking with emotion. "I married at a young age, right after finishing High School. Anil was a great guy, very athletic and had joined the army. He was strong and cared for me. I was so proud of him. In the war of ....", she trailed off, tears running down. I realized then that the man she had loved deeply was lost. Her eyes pooled with tears looked into mine. I was then. Now, you've committed to this relationship, I'm not letting you backout...wait here."I sat on the edge of Nate's bed as he left the room. About a minutelater, he returned with a large ice pack, the kind people use for muscleaches. "We're going to take care of that pesky little boner you havethere." My balls were aching, I needed release. Nate eased me back onhis pillow and applied the ice pack to my cock and balls. After theinitial shock of the cold I could feel it softening and I began to.