We started to get serious about each other and I decided I needed to loseas much of my tits and female clothing as I could.By the end of my first term...my chest had got flatter and I had stoppedwearing bras and petticoats.A few weeks into the second term and I bought some Goth boy's boots(platforms but nonetheless no stiletto heels) and stopped wearing mypanties and pantyhose.Yes I still wore makeup but what self-respecting goth went out withoutmakeup?A few weeks later and Jade and I were. Aur mujhe pata tha ki ek na ek din yeh sawal tu puchega mujhse. Par iska jawab maine tujhe agar de diya to fir tera spiritual journey abhi hi khatam ho jayega.Maa mujhe chumte hue: Iska jawab tujhe ekdin jarur milega. Main tere saath hoon. Tu abhi bas yahi samajh le ki main teri Kali Mata aur tu mera ladla Ramkrishna hai.Main: Mujhe bhi sadhna karna hai. Kaise karu? Aur konsa sadhna karu?Maa: Pagal abhi bas hum dono ke Prem par focus Karo. Tum abhi taiyaar nahi ho. Tumara sharir abhi taiyar. So I said, "like a year ago".Be the judgment of her reaction to the answer I felt like she knew that I was lying, she came near me and said "it's all going to be okay" and left.After a week she came back to my house but this time I invited her for a movie that she really was telling me about, we watch the movie, had some cold drinks and popcorn, I slept at half time because it was boring and horrible movie. But when I woke up, the movie was over, and she was just sort of sleeping too, I went to. I walked in hesitantly as if nothing had happen. I myself was surprised when my dad had said, "good morning sweet heart, how did you sleep?"I was just mad by what he said and in my mind I was thinking, "you're seriously going to act like that after what you've done to me." But then I had just realize that he was drunk so he probably doesn't remember anything about last night. Of course I acted like I didn't know anything too and just replied, "I slept great. How about you?"Confused, he said, "I.