I bounce up and down slowly sucking on your neck, shoulder. You're a moaning mess and i reach down and massage your balls slowly everytime i come down... You take my name making me bite my lips hard. You suddenly take me by my waist and make me fall back, climbing onto me.Its hurts with your dick in when we change the position but you start pounding slowly Your hand reaches up to mine and entwines. My hands are above my head, entwined with yours as we stare into each others eyes You pounding me. . and that too karthik?Rahul: what’s there in this? He is not a kiddo. He is 19 nowMe: I was treating him as my own brother till now. But you are asking me to strip myself before him.Rahul: Kavi, we don’t have any other option. Other than him all my cousins are abroad. And Karthik is trust worthy.Me: but…. did you told him about this?Rahul: no dear… let him know after coming here. I don’t know how he will feel and if he think bad then he will not come.Me: but after coming here if he disagrees. " Look, don't judge me. You know that I am very happy for you and your husband but damn, I am tired of not only being alone shit I am tired of not getting laid. Do you know it has been seven years since I have been with a man!?" I know but you must have faith!" Well I said a big fuck you to faith that night and I followed those guys to the hotel room. They were actually cool guys and it wasn't like I headed out the door that evening and said 'hey why don't I be a big ol' cum bucket tonight.'. And I often worried if I was really that desirable to a such an attractive man, ten years younger than me!Jim helped me get through all that...and that really made me love him in a new deeper way. I have few regrets and lots of smiles looking back. Here is the one big lesson we both learned... Erotic sex needs a component of something new, something naughty, something dangerous, something "illegal" or something outrageous. It just does and I don't think anyone can really get around that fact..