When I got home, I showered, and the massager and I had quite a good time as my resolve to not think about the picture could not handle the sight of r...nning my hands over my breasts, and wondering what it would feel like to be bound helpless like that for another’s pleasure. I got to the mirror while I was drying off, and quietly, I turned, pulled my arms back behind my back and thought about kneeling that way before Mr Wu, and the little old Chinese man was transformed in that moment into a. I want to be more of a man for her, but I just have a hard time doing it.Things have started to change, however, as of the past few months, because I discovered a new fetish I didn't know I had, but now I'm addicted to. While browsing the internet, I found a bunch of what's called 'cuckold' porn. This is the stuff where guys let other men fuck their wives and girlfriends. At first it confused me, but slowly it started to win me over-- and now, I'm completely into it.There's something about. The weekend had been good. We'd done the same on both days. Met for lunch, feeding me up, permanently hungry now. Robert being kind and gentle. Then squash after work. Robert being unkind and not at all gentle. I'd been lucky to win the odd point. I planned to practice secretly with Barbara and surprise him. Still, the exercise was good after a day in the library. Then we'd walked, damp from the shower, into town to find a place to eat. We'd found a little cafe that neither of us had been to. Elaine could not deny her responses to it. We experimented with the dildo using different liquids and a solution of watered, condensed milk gave the most realistic experience. Elaine loved the feel of the strong jets as I pumped the bulb,and one gloriously memorable night, I placed her hand on the bulb, put my hand over hers and squeezed. Pure excitement. I still had never mentioned my fantasies about other men because i was 100% certain what the reaction from Elaine would be to that. I wanted.