But I couldn't accept it. I just backed out the door and left the building. I wandered the streets. then about 8:30 I went back. Afraid to go in. I wa...ch various men leaving the building, wondering if that WAS him. How long, who was it, why, how, my mind raced with questions, confusions and pain. And the memory of the sounds in the apartment, the guteral wailing and the banging on the wall. I finally went in and as usual Laurel was in bed watching Television. She smiled when I came and said ". Wig (cheap halloween type). I got my dummy (lover) down from it's hiding spot in my garage rafters. Attached my homemade dildo. Made that a few years ago with a large condom inserted into a 1.5 in plastic pipe, then filled with pure silicone caulk. Took Months to Dry. Dummy body is some stiff foam attached around a wood frame that hold the dildo. Even has foam legs and but covered with black nylons of course.I lubed my ass and propped the dummy like he was sitting. I got on his lap and gyrated. After the meals Bella talked of a club with great music, not far from the restaurant and they walked to there. As they talked, Bella told Phil that over the years she had wondered a lot of what might had happened, if they stayed together and Phil also confessed that he had multiple same like thoughts. After couple of hours of dancing, it was time to take her back home.Arriving at her home, as he parked in the driveway, he said that a memory was alive in his mind about a night when he brought. I asked her to go out again and she agreed, I leaned into her and our lips met. At first it was just a measurement touch making our lips meet, and the touch lapsed for a second and then our lips met with more pressure.Kissing her for the first time wasn't something I planned, but now that our lips had met it was as if I needed to make this kiss the one and only kiss of our lives. Soft at first and then turning slightly our mouths opened ever so slightly, our tongues touching as I grabbed her by.