My urges so strong, so controlling, I would usually lay awake at night thinking about sucking cock, not able to fall asleep until I masturbated. Throu...h the years, the feelings and urges only increased and became stronger. Barely a teenager, I secretly now only fantasized about cock. Fighting my urges, afraid of what family and friends might think, it was a few more years until I had my first experience with another male. I masturbated every night, sometimes two or three times to the thought of. . Or something." Yes. Not since then."Andrew withdrew from her direct answer, he realised she was more open to talk about sex than others. He could not understand that when the teenagers with there evergreen hornyness, can hold back for years before they have sex. Why not her?Andrew asked, curiously almost, "Why did you not hold yourself back then." By now, his anger abated without him realising that. Perhaps by trying to understand her."...I suddenly felt a cock between my legs, and all those. “I'm sorry baby, I'm sorry.” He was reaching for her trying to get her to slow her down, stop her. She was wildly waving and wiggling away from his touch. There was a smile in his voice which pissed her off. “Let me fix it.” He grabbed, pulling her forcibly to his bare chest, stopping her movement, one arm around her waist the other around her chest pinning her arms to her body. He rubbed his bobbing cock against her bottom the was half covered by her shorts which she wasn't able to fully pull. When you get a little older you will understand and realise that these thins sometimes happen and no-one need be hurt by it.’ ‘Bu Mummy I love him, and you took him away from me. How could you do this to me? After all you have Daddy, why do you want another man?’ ‘One day you will understand just how this came about and why I needed to do what I did, but for now take it from me you will fall in and out of love many times before you find the right person to marry.’ ‘No I won’t! I just know that.