’ ‘How does Darian deal with that?’ He really seemed to be trying to comprehend. ‘Darian and I have an understanding. He believes in the value...of my work. You see, Barry, I don’t just have sex with men. I use sex with men as a vehicle to teach them about the true nature of Love. ‘It is an access point, a way to reach their heart and soul that is unlike any other available on this planet. I use my body as a conduit to channel higher energies—Cosmic Oneness, spiritual power you might say—to the. His name was Josh, and Suzie told me he also did nude modeling. He was a very athletic black man with, as Suzie told me, “a gorgeous fucking cock.”I met Suzie for lunch one day, and she took me by to meet Josh. I was ostensibly there to hire him to nude model for us at one of our Brews & Brushes parties. It turned out that not only did he do nude modeling, but Josh was also a sculptor, who focused on erotic images. When we arrived, he was busy working with a model.Suzie had a key and let us in.. .. all had placed me in the most erotic mood. I had left the house in a hurry, and as I drove I listened to "If You Can't Say No" by Lenny Kravitz, master mood-producer extraordinaire. His music always sends me spiraling into a shameful void of lustful emotions and forbidden thoughts.I drove and sang along with the music, re-playing the same song over and over until I had no choice but to be completely overcome with what the lyrics meant. "If you can't say no, just think about me", easy enough. I watched her hand gently tweak her nipple, just before I unloaded myself into my measly sock. Still, I came hard enough that I inadvertently grunted, just a little too loud. This time, my head wasn't the only one to whip up in alarm. Jessica immediately stopped and grabbed a robe that must have been hanging nearby. I dropped my head below my window when she raced to her patio door.I'm sure she stared out for a few minutes, before I heard her door shut. I waited a little longer before peaking.