He said we should talk.“How are you feeling about all of this, Ter?”“i feel ok right now.”“Good. So you had the experience with your girlfri...nd last summer and now this. Think about this…” He paused, “Did you enjoy what happened with her or what’s happening now more? Take a minute and think about it before you answer.”i thought a few minutes and said, “i don’t know. i enjoyed that and i’m enjoying this too.”“If you had to pick what would you say?”“i’m not sure.””Okay. Then in that case I’m. ”“Don’t be silly. That only makes it more special.”Sean feels stuck between his own personal discomfort and Jeff’s wishes. Finally, he knows he won’t let Jeff down. Holding his breath, he gently squeezes Jeff’s soft buns.“Please relax. Now I’m getting uptight.”He looks into Jeff’s bright brown eyes, tears now forming in his own. “I never did this before. I’m scared.”Full of compassion, “I understand. I’m OK now.”Relieved that he’s off the hook, he also senses that Jeff still needs nurturing.. The first floor was his massage shop, and the final two stories was his home. This was his dream set-up. Brian had no trouble getting customers. All he had to do was place a few ads in the local newspapers, staple a few signs to telephone poles, and customers poured in. He checked his appointment books for the day. Three men who had trouble with their backs, a middle aged mother of four comming in for a deep tissue massage, and...What was this? Brian re-read the appointment again. His secretary. Oh Goddammit, I can't decide, I don't know what I want!"Ma'am, is something wrong"?Oh god, she saw me tearing up as my heart tore apart unsure what it wants, what I want. Deep down."No, I'm fine. Just something in my eye". I lied. She rang up the merchandise. The total. God. All my money, from my hands into Melanie's, for all intents and purposes. It felt so right. It felt so wrong. It felt so damn thrilling.The cashier eyed me a bit. She knew that they weren't my size. Melanie has nice size.