.. we've been together for a while. Shouldn't we be talking about getting married?" he asked haltingly."Ha Ha!" Julie exclaimed. "I thought you'd neve... ask." She was in a good mood, fueled in part by the wine and in part by the wonderful evening.Julie spoke in a light voice and not at all confrontationally. "I've been waiting for this, you know. I've been waiting for ... it seems like a long time." The wine had obviously done its work."Well, does that mean you agree?" he laughed as he realized. I cried, silently and in private.There had been the scrawny, freckled girl when I was twelve. The girl who had taught me how to play my body. She had taught me the miracle of lovemaking. She gave me this shattering feeling that had enslaved me at once. But the girl had left soon and without a word. She left me behind with a craving I could not fulfil. No one cared to share it with me.Oh, in some circles I was popular. But what's in a word? For the pimpled nerds I was popular. For the shy closet. I tried spreading her ass even farther and pulled my face in closer. I couldn't lick her hard or deep enough! "Oh my God!" Beth exclaimed. "That feels so good! Yeah, that's it, get that tongue all over my hole! I love you licking my ass! Fucking lick it some more! Do you realize that I haven't showered since last night and that I took a dump this morning? Do you like tasting my ass after I shit just a few hours ago? 'Cause I sure love it! Fuck yes!"Beth turned her head and looked down at me and. .. Is it weird for you to tell me this stuff? Would you rather not tell me? That's O.K. if you don't." No, not it's not that. It's more like ... like I felt weird doing these things ... and not ... not doing them with you."Taylor sat silently for a few moments before speaking."Jack ... really? I mean ... I'm not sure what you mean." I'm not sure either, Taylor. I mean, since we started doing stuff ... you and me... , it ... I don't know. It just felt weird being with Kristi after what you and I.