"And I asked him if he wasn't mad at me and he said no. It had just beenabout business stuff and things. And he thought I had just meant madabout scho...l too. But I asked him about what I had had on last Monday.But he said (just like this, Marsh!), "What? Why would that upset me,Judey? You're my kid, and what you wear won't upset me, ever! -- well, ifyou were wearing rags or a barrel, I'd be very upset, unless it was justbecause it was a new fashion. And I'd appreciate it if you would. On the way back to Gran's, Momexplained everything. She had always known about my wearing panties,and before the summer started, had asked Gran to keep an eye out for anysort of similar behavior. They decided that if I did try wearing girl'sclothes, that Gran should encourage me. Mom wanted to see if it was"just a phase" that I would get bored with, or if I would live life as agirl to the fullest. Her answer came when she saw me walk down theaisle as a flower girl. We spent a long time. "The first three presets are set for five minutes. The last one will run until I stop it." "Five minutes! I'm going to melt." "Relax. Your body will adjust. Enjoy the feelings. Pay attention to the details, to the sounds around you. I'm the only one that needs to see." Emily suddenly felt exposed. She was blindfolded, listening, sweating. She couldn't see him but he was looking at her in her black clinging dress, and nothing else. "This is a game. My game, not your brothel game. Please. Most of the animals in the bug barns had crunched down to lie there half asleep but listening. As Ben did walk the three main aisles of the barn and between the many animal pens, he could hear some odd sounds; as if someone was moaning and hurt.Concerned for anyone in pain, Ben likely dashed up and down the stalls, checking in each of the hundred or so there in that barn. One checking done, he bumped into a night watchman, and showing the papers of his placement as a 4-H judge on the morrow, he.