Do you think thatmaybe these feelings you have stem more from that bad relationship witha male figure than from truly desiring to be a woman?" I had n...ver thought of it that way," I answered. "Maybe, not reallysure. Something in the back of my mind is telling me maybe. I justcan't really pinpoint it down, though. I'm not really sure."Ms. Wilcox asked me to think on it as we would discuss it more nextweek. I left the appointment even more confused than before. A weekwent by uneventful and. ‘Why do I stay here? I work so hard … for Sietter and for the good of the people. People tell me to trust you, so I do. I invite you to hear about my work and what happens? Sends’t to say has’t a stomach ache and then tells’t it to me: ‘Oh, they are only merchants’. In your absence I must take care of your lands and your children and your castle and you, what does’t? Runnest to and fro as it pleases you, flirting with whosoever catches your idle eye! I am tired of this, I am going. I can go. So, the young guy lifted me up onto the table and sat me on the edge. I expected him to just fuck me right then and there, but he really did bend down to retie the laces around my ankles. I began again to feel hot and turned on by this black guy.When he stood up again, he saw I was sitting there just in these sexy heels; since I had unzipped my skirt, while taking my top over my head.I was beyond ready to get fucked...He reached out and touched my hard nipples. A moment later, I closed my eyes,. .. whatever you would want to use here if you were starting from scratch.” Nick looked around the apartment. “I also wanted to talk to you about staffing the new kitchens and what role you see yourself in going forward.”“But you’re going to talk about my role going forward first, right?” Jake interjected.“Mija...” said Raoul, a clear hint of warning in his voice.“We can talk about things in whatever order you like. But, first, have you eaten? My body thinks it’s breakfast time,” said Nick.Raoul.