Now where do you gowith this in your mind? Are you Phyllis or Phillip? What is normal?Are you a man in a fancy dress costume or a woman trapped in a...man'sbody?"I look at myself in the mirror as Lorraine started to fiddle with myhair.Where was she taking me? How could I be more manly looking like this?She then put this long pink wig on my head. The wig just screamed"Girl!" Men don't really wear pink all that much and pink hair? I alsonoted it really suited me. It was unnatural. I was. .' She smiled brightly and said enticingly, '...sure why not perhaps we can find some way to repay your generosity...' I smiled as she dropped the other bag at my feet and slid close by me saying '...do follow me...' We entered their motel room she closed the door and walked over to the closed bathroom door and said '...we have company, and he's mighty cute, even if he is a little drunk...' I heard laughter from the other side of the door and could not make out what was being said. The. ..feelings, feelings for you” he said, his voice turning into a whisper by the end of the sentence. We both sat there for a while, neither of us said anything, but I knew I had to tell the truth. He was being open enough with me, and I had to return the favour. “I know how you feel” I whispered. He looked at me, smiling. “You mean...you feel it too?”I didn’t say anything. I just sat there, facing forwards. “I know you feel weird mom, but you shouldn’t. There’s nothing wrong about this, people. "Darling - these are so very beautiful! 12 red roses! Thank you!" I putthem in water on the dining room table. We sat down and ate a largedinner of steak, salad, rice and tomato, and corn. I had made achocolate cake for dessert. We both enjoyed dinner. I took another pieceof cake, and Phil smiled, "One for the baby?" I smiled and replied in a giggle, "Yes, dear. The little one already hasa sweet tooth!" He laughed at that. He then went to watch the TV newswhile I cleaned up and washed the.