I wrecked my relationship with Jocelyn that way. I’m not doing that twice.”“I’m not her,” she replied quietly.“I know; but the risk ... th... risk is too great, and I’m not sure we could survive if you reacted badly.”“But you recognize the problem the other way, right? That we can’t be like this if you’re married.”“The proverbial ‘no-win scenario’,” I sighed. “Damned if we do and damned if we don’t.”“Kobayashi Maru,” Clarissa agreed.“I’ve wondered what the alternative course would look like? You. We raised a lot of money, morethan projections for the year.And we got to know each other. Phil's limo would pick me up ? a neighborof mine later told me she thought I was hooker ? at my apartment. I had aclothing allowance by now, so I usually looked good.Well, you know how people talk. Phil and I would arrive together, and wewould leave together, and the whispers began that we were an item. Oh, itwasn't vicious. He was single, and I was single, and most of the crowdswe visited were pro-gay.. Humne ek auto kiya dilshad garden k liye seedha or aunty or main aunto me bhaite chal diye, beech me humne kuch bola to nahi lekin main chupke se unhe dhek raha tha wo smile de rahi thi . maine unka hath pakda or unhone bhi apni pakad tight kardi,Phir chalte auto me maine unke mume chuye unhone kuch nahi bola or kaan me bola thoda sabar kar or mera naam pucha. Naam batane par boli mere peeche aana auto se nikal kar or kahin mat dhekna, hum ek flatpar gaye jaha ek ladki thi usne darwaja khola or. I was scared & gone to my room quickly. This night i was not slept properly, every time when i tried to sleep i got the snap in my mind. As my uncle was work in 5 star hotels many of the night he will be busy to attend gusts, it’s very common for him. But this night was exception.Day’s passes everything was quite normal, after 2 or3 months all of a sudden the doom day came. After office when i returned from my office i carry a bottle of whisky with me. After returning i pour a large peg of.