After that episode, it was difficult to turn or lean to my left side without a lot of pain. I started taking some pain-killers, but would not touch th... hard stuff that makes you into a zombie.This flared up on me pretty bad about six weeks after I returned State-side. I was walking up the stairs of a subway exit in New York City and felt the same familiar stabbing pain in my back. It was really funny how I could not even stand up straight. I looked like a character out of a Dickens novel. I was. The answer--how to atone for the crimes I committed as a hitokiri. I can't find it!(Oibore looks at him for a long moment.)Oibore: Is that so. Even with your weak, confused heart, you won't let go of what you're holding so tight in your hand... (Kenshin looks down at the sword.)Oibore: You lose what's most precious to you... exhaust yourself body and soul. But if you have something you can't bring yourself to throw away, whatever anyone says, that's your only truth.There's one thing I can do.. I knew what they were and I knew exactly where they’d been. It was a thrilling discovery and I didn’t hesitate to pick one up, give it a lick then take it in my mouth like a big dick, but a dick that I knew for sure had been shoved up the most ‘forbidden fruit’ I could imagine. This was like the final straw for me. The reasonably modest view I had of my mum was shattered! I now saw her as a bit of a dirty whore who couldn’t get enough cock, and I liked it. She had like six 4” to 8” vibrators,. " Tara smiled and noticed Jessica was trying not to do the pee pee dance."Nice to meet you I'm Tara." They shook hands and Jessica started to peer into Tara's apartment, looking at the far door which was the bathroom."This is embarrassing but, would you mind if I used your bathroom? My mom has to bring the key here and she's gonna be a little while." Oh not a problem, it's just straight down there." Tara pointed at the door that was directly behind her. Jessica said thanks and then walked.