Our lovemaking kept rumbling around in my head as I dressed and headed to the mess hall. Billy was already there and he looked squeaky clean and invit...ng. He greeted me like a comrade would who had just survived combat together. It felt warm and pleasant just sitting next to him. After eating Billy walked with me to my tent, (ever since Carla was killed I'd been bunking alone.) And when he was about to leave I took hold of his arm and asked him if he'd like to come in for a while. It's against. ” They knew I was coming?!As I follow this young Asian woman through the parlor, I noticed each room with its own door, some doors were open. Inside each enclosed room was a massage table, shower, and nicely decorated. The place smelled good too.We reached the back of the parlor, she knocked on the wall near a door way with curtains. A voice said come in. Lilly was a middle aged, good looking Asian woman. She stood and welcomed me.Lilly told me I did a wonderful thing. Linda had called her. They had been denied the good jobs because of that.The real reason was because most of them were not capable of performing the high Tec jobs of the last century. They were employed in the low paying jobs because that was the only things they could do well. With total integration blacks found that they were in fact not able to perform as well as whites.Head Start programs were tried, give blacks a year of preparation before entering the schools, that would be the answer.Integration of the. "Some embarrassing moments later, not to mention, smelly ones, I emergedfrom the bathroom. Mom was waiting for me, "No problems?" Nope, I got that down right, I think."Mom smiled, "Just wait till you get your period, then we'll talk again."I got frightened. 'Oh man, I'm a girl, I will have periods! I can evenget pregnant, maybe. Oh shit, I don't even want to think about that, orthink about boys. Hell, I don't even want to think about meeting otherpeople.'Mom acted like she didn't see me flinch..