I sat there transformed, I was lusting and with that came a boldness, bordering on brazenness, a clarity that cleared my vision, suddenly the penny dr...pped, this relative wanted to fuck me, and with that, I realized I wanted him to fuck me, take my virginity and this acknowledgement made me sound different as I spoke my realization to him, 'Do you really want me to use this, or do you want to do it'?There I said it and felt elated, light-headed, now I was really a women, offering a man to fuck. I was enjoying my fingering and could feel the men behind me feel around my open crotch, I was wet and slippery, and expected the first cock to push in on my open pussy.My train of thought was disrupted as the woman out front shouted, 'I can feel her nipples hardening, I think she wants you to see them', and as she fondled her tits, the woman said yes, she wanted the men to see her, so without much ado, she was undressed all the way down to her stockings, her dress, brassiere and knickers were. After taking the little ones to school I went to the gym but was tired so I did a light workout. Some more of the regular men chatted with me, flirted a bit and I thought about those big muscles wrapped around me while they fucked me. But I had to get a workout in, I had to keep my body because that’s what gave me the attention that I craved. They didn’t care about me as a person and I liked that in a way, I liked men wanting me for my body.As I finished the phone rang and it was an unfamiliar. God that felt wonderful. It was so much better that when I masturbated. She started a rhythm, bobbing up and down rapidly on my no longer virgin cock. She kept her lips tight enough so that she moved the loose outer skin up and down on the rock hard inner shaft and her tongue rubbed over the underside of my prick. I didn't take her more than about a minute to bring me off. She had my balls in her hand gently squeezing them and when she felt the sack tighten, she stopped with my cock head.