Thanks.__________________________________________________________________"AAhhHHHAa!" I heard my sister scream. As I look towards her door from across...the hallway through my open door, I quickly stand upto help her. As I approach her door, I hear her scream again. I push open the door, and I see my blond, 14 year old sister weeping in the corner of her room.I approach her, and placing my hand on her shoulder, I ask, "Sam, what’s wrong?"My sister then proceeds to tell me that there is a "HUGE". ’ Pat felt her headache returning. ‘All those years, you think that I wanted to be like that? To be a soldier? Making him happy was the only way I could keep him from pushing on Buddy. There were so many times I wanted you to stand up for me, not just Buddy. When I first started to menstruate, I had to look up what it all meant in books because I didn’t think I could talk to you. There were times I wanted to be . . . damn it, where I wanted to be a ‘girl,’ but I didn’t have anyone to show me. ”“Yes, it is. I got a mysterious card yesterday. The card of a killer agency.”“Killers ... Where did you get this card?”“With a coworker.”May didn’t want to tell Jonas about Lucas, since if he did, Jonas would be suspicious, and maybe he’d intercede for her. May, deep down, wanted to be alone with Lucas and knew that everything would change if Jonas knew. Knowing him, Jonas would probably find Lucas very suspicious, and to protect his sister, would prevent them from having contact.May didn’t. " (I didn't mention humiliation at the hands of Dominant Black Men and what that did for me.) She responded with a deep sigh, "Thank God! I was afraid you were really into it, and I was afraid of what was going to happen when we left! I need my real man to be a real man!" "Then why the denial and humiliation stuff?" "Like everything we have experienced here, multiple things: First, anger and resentment that you wanted other men to fuck me. I know you set it up to look like each step was my.