He noticed us, and me wearing hose. after his set hecame over to us and we chatted for a bit. He told us there wasa "special" house party a little way... down the street.to go there andhe would be there when his shift is over. He gave us directions tothis house( not too far away) when we arrived there was this huge guy@ the door, we told him Lexi sent us and gave him the secret word. Helet us in. It was one big room with a bar by the door, a floor levelstage in the middle and seats and couches. But 'his' smile fell, "I spilled wine on her. The end of*that *date.".Then.then-Nghhh!! I can't remember. Nothing! It's, it's like." and as hesaid it, he knew, "There's a big hole in my life. I'm missing somebody."Who?! Who!?!"'He' bent forward, to beat 'his' head against the dirt floor. 'His' oncetight stomach now had a "pooch". 'He' leaned back, and grunted, andpushed.and felt (and saw under the thin linen robe) the stomach balloon out.=Yep, that's 'my' kid, alright.== = ="Look: Your 'Mama's. Later she came in my room. I don't owe you an explanation but since your father left I have no one to satisfy my needs. Can you understand that? Yes. I could see that you liked it. I did but...... Do you want to come with me this weekend? I'm not sure. What do I have to do? Just watch if that's all you want to do. After all you're 23 & have a nice body. You're not a virgin are you? No. Think about it.That's all I could think about. sucking, fucking, getting fucked. I didn't have a bf anymore.. ‘Monica honey, who’s your friend? Would you like some drinks?’ a woman’s voice floated from the open kitchen window. ‘Sure.’ Monica stood up awkwardly and wiped her hands on her jeans. ‘Come meet my mom, she’s nice.’ Her mind screamed in denial as her feet followed Monica to the front of the house, but she could think of no polite way to refuse. Why did people always say that it would be nice to see their lost loved ones ‘just one more time’ when all it truly did was make the sadness of loss.