Something that I've secretly craved for a long, long time. Something that I can no longer go on without trying at least one time.With the most guilty ...f feelings I take my purse off the nightstand and carefully close the bedroom door. I make as little noise as possible as I move towards the front of the house. It takes a lot of courage to turn that knob, but I do.For twenty minutes I drive through the city. Even though I know where I'm going, I still feel lost. This is a big step I'm taking.. I had missed two periods, and had become worried that something was wrong. I never thought of pregnancy, and rushed to my doctor to find out some fatal news. She informed me that nothing was wrong, but that I was going to have a baby. I didnt know what to do, the baby would be my fathers, and that scared me. I came home and waited impatiently for my father to get home from work. I barely gave him time to walk in the door. Im pregnant! What? Yeah, Im pregnant. I began to cry, my fears for the. Since witnessing my cheating mother our relationship has been in the dumps. She can’t figure out why we aren’t close anymore and they seem to think I have something against here for divorcing my father. To tell you the truth my father is an asshole and their divorce was the best thing for her. I never thought of my mother as sexy or even thought other men might look at her in that way until I witnessed what I’m about to tell you. Anyways let me tell you what happened in the spring.My best. As a result of the settlement the girls and I gotthe home. He eventually moved to New York and wenever saw him again. The girls and I settled down tolive our lives in peace. I had no desire to go out andfind another man. I was happy working in a womenboutique and doing everything I would to provide mygirls every opportunity to become whatever theywanted. Eventually I got bored with spending mynights masturbating myself to sleep. I found myselfthinking about my ex's suggestion of making it.