I better go. I've got some homework to do. Okay if I come back tomorrow?" Sure, if I'm here, which I most likely will be."She was off. Matt sat out th...re for a bit longer, but then went inside and started fixing his dinner.The next day Rosie came over before she went home to dump her books. Rosie stacked her books by the stairs, then took a seat on the swing. Matt was sitting in his usual place, Rosie at the other end."I was thinking a lot about what you said yesterday. I decided that it sounds. I sat back with my legs slightly apart and my arms draped protectively over my lap, alive with the possibilities of what we could do together but still afraid that I would be a disappointment to her somehow. How dumb it is that when you have a dream come true there’s still a part of you that wants it to remain a dream.Holly sat beside me and drew herself up to me, her legs pulled up to her chest. She leant towards my neck and I felt her breath waft over me; shaking, I tilted my head back and. I had just spent almost an entire month trying to seduce my father and he was now standing in front of me, unbuckling his belt. I wanted him so bad, I could taste him. I was 22 years old, just out of the military and was staying with my parents while I went to school full time. My father and I had slipped into this non-verbal routine. I would wait, naked, for him in the shower and he would come watch me dry myself. I never made any attempt to cover myself. I always made sure I bent over to pick. I shouldn't get to have all the fun.” I laughed. “Ginger said almost exactly the same thing.” I paused. After a moment I added, “But Jeanne, it's harder for a middle aged man to find playmates.” “You've done pretty well on your trip.” “I was lucky.” “I think it was more than luck. You're a very sweet man. Lots of women are attracted to sweet men.” “You're not.” “Yes I am, I married one. You're right, when I'm dating I look for brazen, assertive men, but that's because I have a sweet, gentle man.