. Gail said that you were... that you wanted to?" She did? Listen, Amy... I'm really tired of the way things have been going. I'm just... I don't thin... tonight is a good idea." Jimmy... Jimmy, please. I need... I... I really wish you'd let me... you know." Amy, what's the big deal? I'm done playing blow up doll for you and your circle of friends, OK?"There was a pause, but I could hear her breathing. Finally, she took a deep breath."They're... they're not my friends... not really." Amy... Look,. As she touched herself, she would visualize a girl, sometimes with Marcie's face, but not always. The girl would be sitting on a toilet making exaggerated grunting noises while in the act of defecating. Rose imagined herself watching the girl, unseen, though in close proximity. In the fantasy, Rose approached the girl, drawing close enough to touch her. Some of Rose's dreams were similar in nature. During these, the faces changed places. The girl on the toilet was often Rose, while the. The late lunch goes well; I manage to keep my cool and lower feelings concealed. Shalyn eats like she is enjoying the last supper."When was the last time you ate?" Well with grandmother on my mind, I haven't been eating well but this mountain air must have gotten my appetite working, everything tastes so good." Since you have your appetite back maybe we should run into town and get some steaks for supper. Would you like to come with me?" No, you can do the shopping. I will clean up the mess. I felt like I was almost ready to go again but mom was already on the way to the bathroom. We had brunch with sangria, and I was feeling pretty good by the time I got to Jimmy's house. The game was about to start and I asked Jimmy about Aunt Lila; I wanted to see her. He said she was in her room and I went and knocked on the door. When I went in, she was making herself up wearing Jeans and a sweatshirt. She smiled at me and said, "It looked like you and your mom were doing okay when I left you.