I’m still undecided as I put my arm around your shoulders. Holding my breath and feeling like a boy, I wait for your reaction. I’m sure you hear m... let my breath out, because as I do you just look up at me and smile. My heart skips a beat and I’m pretty sure you can tell. I can see in your face how you enjoy watching me squirm. My heart is racing and my legs are shaking, but my courage peaks at that moment. I have decided to kiss you. Miraculously, my courage holds. My hand lifts your face to. “Hi mam its Roshan here. How are you?” Ye message ka date usi din ke agle din ka tha jab meri mummy ko Roshan ne party ke bad choda tha. Khair aage ka message batata hu.Mummy: Hi Roshan, I am fine don’t call me mam. How are you?Roshan: Ok, so how are you feeling?Mummy: Good aur you?Roshan: I am fine aur feeling good. I really enjoyed time with you.Mummy: Yeah same here. It was good for me aur relaxing too.Roshan: Can we meet again?Mummy:(smily ka sign banate hue) Why?Roshan: Just thought to. I wasn't very good at deep throating but I gave it a try. He came really quick, a lot quicker than usual. We washed each other and turned of the water, we got out of the shower, I asked Daniel if he could get dressed in his room I had a couple things I wanted to do firs. I brushed my teeth and put on a little bit of make up. I had recently brought a knee bra and panties set, they were black and red candy striped and they were very lacy, I put them on with some heels to make my legs look better. ‘OK to turn off the lights?’ I asked. ‘Mm-hmm,’ she replied. I turned them off, took off my pants and tee shirt, and got under my sleeping bag. ‘Um,’ I said, across the room, ‘this is terrible, but I don’t remember your name.’ ‘Magda,’ she said. ‘Right. Magda. Well. OK then. Good night.’ ‘Night,’ she said. What in the hell had I been thinking? — That first week was like walking on pins and needles. We were courteous and polite, like strangers at a mixer. After work on Thursday we went to IKEA.