. this ... this ... charade, but you didn't."If I were to ask anyone of the moms' they would all tell me that you joked about how much fun this will b.... I'll tell you, in deadly earnest, I AM the teacher and you WILL respect me. When we are in that ... classroom ... I am in charge."I shattered in that moment ... I was thirteen, crying and there was no help for it. My life had changed in a split second. The man on whose lap I sat, who hugged me when I fell, who taught me to swim, ride a bike,. .. whole of him. He had been put onto puberty blockers when he had first began to transition from Alexandrietta to Louis, and so he had never developed breasts. Testosterone had sculpted him more than estrogen, but he had taken more after his mother despite it. Sleek. Lithe. Not the broad shouldered bullish might of his father. A tiny part of him had worried that ... he wouldn’t quite be seen as manly. That he’d always be seen as the feminine transmasc pseudoqueen of the Neopolitan Star. The blades were invisible becase they retracted completely into the baton. At that point, the only sign of the blade’s existence was the hole in the end of the baton that the blade projected through. At the other end of the baton was a button that extended or retracted the blade as appropriate. There was also a small lanyard and strap for the wrist so that the baton could not be lost. As nearly as I could tell at this point, the baton/stabbing spear was perfect. Mara agreed. She wanted her. Part 2As I laid there I ask Rowan and Primrose, will I remember anything of mypast life "some you will remember, the sexual conflicts you felt all ofyour life, this will help you empathise with those you will help in thefuture" as he was telling me this I thought back over my previous life asEric and realised what Rowan was telling me was the truth, I had alwaysbeen in conflict with my sexuality was I a boy or a girl, the girl I feltI was supposed to be and how as a teenager I had experimented.